Meet The Narrator: Renee Foss
 

Hello! I am Foss!
Am I happy to be here? Where? Here! On planet Earth! Experiencing the life cycle! Am I happy to be here? No!

The life environment appears to be hostile, dangerous, unwelcoming and inconsistent. Appearances are not deceiving. The life environment is hostile, dangerous, and unwelcoming, but it is not inconsistent within itself. Appearances are not deceiving. The inconsistency is between what is and what we pretend is.

The pretend is says that I have evolved way beyond being an animal. The pretend is says that while it is true that I am a living organism that feeds on organic matter, have specialized sense organs, and a nervous system that is able to respond rapidly to stimuli, I am more than that. After all, gods die for me. How do I know that? Someone told me so at the same age as when I learned about the tooth fairy and the Easter bunny.

By the way, when I was four years old, my mother and I were in a five and ten cent store where a person dressed in an Easter bunny suit accessorized with a plastic bunny head was walking around and speaking to children as if they were less than intelligent. When my turn came, I refused to speak to “her” because I could see “her” inside that plastic bunny head. I explained to my mother that there was a person inside the suit and, therefore, there could not be a bunny. My mother would not acknowledge my observation. I then told her that I had changed my mind and wanted to speak with the bunny. The imposter kneeled in front of me and spoke sweetly. My response was to stick my finger through the false eye and poke her in her real eye. She screamed, stood up and removed the head. To my mother I said, “I told you it was not a real bunny.” My mother remained unimpressed with me. Her remaining time in the five and ten cent store was spent offering an apology to the unreal reality.

What is? Death is. What we pretend is? Eternal life with a different geography.

Koan: Then, again, what if? Can we plan for what we pretend is?